
This one feels different. For some reason I feel I have lost interest in writing on this web page because lately I seem to be writing about fallen friends more then about powder or cool trips and experiences. Well, that is not true because I have still been doing some great things and experiencing life to its fullest, but for the sake of my mind I have been reluctant to write on this web page temporarily because I have been saddened by the reality of saying goodbye to friends one after the other.
Yet again, I am here writing an emotionally driven post in response to the recent events of loosing Arne Backstrom who died ski-mountaineering in Peru just a few weeks ago. I am not sure why this one feels different, but maybe we as a ski community are numbed by the reality and successive events.
After some of the most amazing final days, with May 2nd and 3rd yielding the greatest days of the season, I thought we had made it through the season and it was time for summer. I guess I did not realize that where there is snow, skiers will ski. So, June in Peru is fair game and Arne and his crew (Kip Garre and Dave Rosenbarger) were taking advantage or a rare opportunity to climb and ski some amazing terrain in the Llanganuco Valley of the Cordillera Blanca, Peru. With peaks reaching 17,000 feet, Arne and crew had set up a base camp and were climbing the surrounding peaks and skiing in preparation for the bigger assents later in the trip. While climbing and trying to get acclimated to the area and after reaching a peak, the crew started a descent and Arne opted to attempt the descent first. From the sound of it, everything in the area was a relatively precarious decent filled with ice, mandatory traverses above exposure, and glaciated ice and terrain. According to Kip and Dave, Arne started the descent and as he dropped out of their view and they lost contact. They new something was wrong when they did not hear from him and their worst fear came true.
Arne took a fall and sustained some substantial trauma. When the guys found him, he had a slight pulse, but given the remote location and lack of resources their options for rescue or medical attention were limited. Arne passed and his memorial was held in Squaw Valley this past week.
So, I am left here telling you, who ever you are, that another friend of mine has passed, but at least he did so doing what he loved. I have too many memories where I have done things and said, “that was close.” Well, those close calls catch up with you eventually and this past week it caught me and it has made me think. Riding my bike in Mill Creek Canyon outside of Salt Lake City, I was hit by a truck that cut in front of me. Well, I have always wanted to be able to say that I was hit by a truck, but I can attest that the real truck hurts a lot worse then the metaphorical one. While some days you feel like you have been hit by a truck because of work, emotions, and life raining down on you, but I was struck by a real truck followed by a fence and then a bench. However, some stitches and a bruised and battered body is all I sustained, but yet again I found myself walking away saying, “that was close.”
So where does it stop? When will my desire to push my luck or look for that next thrill subside? A yearning desire for adrenalin and excitement is what drives us all, or at least those who thrive on the adventure in gravity fed sports. Yet it is this desire that keeps taking our friends away from us too. I guess that is the price we pay for adventure, and any day could be our last, but to scuttle into a life of solidarity and safety would be a far greater death to our souls. To become querulous bedridden valetudinarians would be the last thing our fallen friends would wish upon us as a way of morning their loss. Contrary, they died doing what they loved and what we loved doing with them and it is my belief that they would want us to continue doing what we love. Death is eminent and inevitable, but the time we spend leading up to our ultimate demise is what marks our time on this earth. However, we have to learn from our fallen friends as well. In order to extend our time on this earth and assure we get to the bottom and have the opportunity to say, “that was close” as apposed to “oops,” slow down and think before you drop in and make sure you are doing what you love because there is nothing worse then wishing you had. So looking back on my past few years and at all those who I have said goodbye to and all the times I have said “that was close” I think about those who love me. Is it worth it? No doubt, but the reality needs to be respected.
Many have died fighting for our freedom, and many have died fighting to be free. As I sit here and remember Arne, he was doing nothing but trying to feel free. Arne, you will be missed, but your sense of adventure will live on in all of those with whom you shared your love for life and in those you shared your life with. We will continue to play on in your name, but never forget the reality of our actions.
